Cloudy, cloudy and cloudy…

I don’t like the spring in Hong Kong. It always cloudy or raining. When I am unhappy or in blue mood, I would like to go for a walk or hiking. But the weather of the spring is not good for the outdoors. So I could only stay in home to listen music. As I have no mood to listen happy melodies, most of the melodies I listen at this moment are the sad melodies… It makes my blue mood much darker…
But at the current dark blue mode, I still have to work, have to do the gathering and have to put afford in the opensource communities. These all activities are the only way to prove myself I am still useful…
When I look back what I have done in the past 10 years, I had made so many wrong decisions, lost my “True Destiny”, lost the chance of the UK residentship, lost the chance to study in Cambridge, lost the chance to be a PHD…
In fact, I am what I am at the moment because of those wrong decisions.
If not those wrong decisions, I could not join Apple.
If not those wrong decisions, I could not found my company, but I am still in a hard life to running it…
If not those wrong decisions, I could not be an Executive Committee Member of the Hong Kong Linux User Group.
If not those wrong decisions, I could not have chance to hold some opensouce projects to help the elders, children, students and Linux users.
If not those wrong decisions, I could not join a political party and try to help Hong Kong to be better, but of course I am finally totally disappointed and think about immigration.

All the things I have at this moment is based on my wrong decisions.
But I am still not free myself and forgive myself is the lost of my “True Destiny”.
It is now turning to the scar of my heart. It won’t never be forgotten and disappeared…

I wish tomorrow would be a sunny day…

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